My Story
Jun 15, 2019
I grew up obese.
I struggled with depression.
I was teased and I was bullied.
I was an A student, a perfectionist; always trying to be the best.
I wanted to be a famous singer like Madonna, or a spice girl. I wanted to be a famous Hollywood actor. I wanted to live big. I wanted to make my mark on this world.
I hated going to school and had regular panic about it; leaving home made me sad every day.
When I was 15 I topped out at 258lbs. I was miserable. My body felt awful. My legs chafed til they bled if I walked to far... I was so deeply and utterly embarrassed.
I had finally had enough. And if I was going to live my dream I needed to lose the weight...
I started exercising and dieting. It was good... then in a horrifyingly short amount of time it spiraled into anorexia; the worst mental illness of my life.
I exercised hard core every day and I only ate 1/3 a cup of food 3 times a day for a year and 4 months.
My body always hurt... my hair started falling out... I couldn't remember anything, my head was in a fog... my menstrual cycles stopped... I started getting heart arrithmia... I couldn't sleep...
Worse than that was the non stop bullying. IN. MY. HEAD. No one was ever meaner to me than me...
I hated myself. I was willing to die.
I develop OCD.
I was a total b*tch to everyone because I was in agony physically and mentally. ..
I lost 138lbs. You could count my ribs.
It was years and years of therapy to recover and years and years of work on self love to stop hating myself.
In the midst of it all I wrote my first book Fire Fury Freedom when I was 16.
At 17 I wrote The Impending End about my mental health struggles.
I went to college for acting for film and TV and then creative writing. I graduated with the governor generals award...
I graduated... into the 2008 recession.
No jobs. No US film in Canada. Dreams crushed.
This A student couldn't even get a minimum wage job.
My parents floated me financially for a year.
Then... I got a job in door to door sales.
Not what I planned...
Then I got a minimum wage job in retail. But the hours were limited and I couldn't even cover my basic necessities. .. I was going into debt.
I tried my best at that job. I saw ways to improve the company. My opinions meant nothing. I hated it. I stopped caring...
Then I saw a place hiring which ONLY hired actors... I was intrigued. I went and auditioned. I got hired (THANK YOU Emmanuelle Duval-Auger ❤)
It was live sales presentations. But we had to learn 30 minute monologues in 3 days, hence they hired actors... I LOVED IT.
It was fun. It was exhilarating.
The first few weeks we were paid weekly... then... 100% commissions.
The first day I was on 100% commission I panicked.
"What if I can't do this?"
"I can't go back to retail!"
My brain raced...
I called one of my mentors, Serge Plourde, but got his voice mail. I left a rapid-fire panicked message. I swallowed my fear. I did my first presentation.
The presentation went well. I felt better. Then I saw Serge had called me back, so checked my voice mail. I wish I could have saved his message...
"Amanda! Today is a GREAT day! Today is the day the ceiling gets lifted on your income!"
It went on, inspiring, making me feel better; I knew then that I could do this.
I loved that job. I eventually got to train our new hires. I loved being a leader.
I met Melanie Ann Layer and Kevin Scott through that job. I'm grateful for it ❤
It came to an end when management shifted... I was on my week off, the ONLY week off I ever took, and our new manager called me and yelled and me for 30 minutes while I cried.
It crushed me.
The joy was lost.
A few months later I had to quit.
I had no plan. I didn't have more than a few months savings to live on. I couldn't face getting another job. I wanted to work on my dreams.
It was 2013.
I joined an mlm, I had no idea it was an mlm or wtf mlm was, but I'd been a customer of Beach body for 10 years at that point. I saw an opportunity. I took it.
I started to build my online health and fitness business as a Beachbody coach. I made my first sale in my first month. I made less than $100 but in that moment I knew I could do this; I could make it work.
I built my biz steadily. I was ambitious. I failed repeatedly. I had 0 social media skills. But I was determined.
I was changing lives and it felt amazing.
I got married in 2013 and we got our first house in 2014.
My husband helped support us financially while I built my business.
A couple of years later he got fired. I wasn't earning enough to completely cover the mortgage, car, and all of our other expenses. I was scared.
Throughout my Beachbody building, my mentors all spoke about personal growth but I was too cool for school to do it. I'd always say, "I already know it."
In my childhood house, everything was new age, my parents were open-minded so meditation, tarot, crystals, astrology and all the 'woo' were everyday things.
During anorexia and early adult life crushing responsibility on me, I wandered from my spiritual roots.
But after my husband was fired I KNEW without a doubt that personal growth was the solution.
I dove in full throttle. I needed help fast.
Manifesting and mindset became my rhetoric. I devoured Secrets of the Millionaire Mind and You Are a Badass, read and re-read them, and applied them.
Within 6 months we manifested 6-figures and our lives completely changed.
We moved.
We felt free.
I decided it was time to live a long lost dream and get a book published.
Simultaneously I felt called to pay-it-forward with mindset and law of attraction so I created a 3-week course on it.
The course is now available as my book "Manifesting on Purpose" and the rights for Vietnamese translation for worldwide distribution were just purchased recently.
I felt a fire in my soul.
I have been in full on creation mode for 18 months.
I'm now a multi-published author, business and mindset coach, Beachbody coach, motivational speaker, online course creator, and actor.
I live my dreams.
I live with freedom.
I empower others to live their dreams.
My mission is to shift human consciousness to create soulful abundance through mindset practices.
If I can overcome, you can too ❤
Xoxoxo
Amanda Rose
Connect with me: Facebook
Work with me: Business & Mindset Coaching
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